Meeting a Photo Hero, Again

December 11, 2025

Karma takes a strange turn in a reunion of sorts

[Originally published on Medium in summer of 2024. I wanted to get it archived here on my own site, with a few minor updates.]

Something remarkable happened to me not long ago but you need the backstory, I’ll make it short.

In 1998, I attended a documentary photo workshop in Prague as part of my effort to pivot away from newspaper photojournalism, which I had been doing professionally for a few years. I was trying to start over and rebuild on a foundation of personal vision.

During the workshop we had a guest speaker, a Czech photographer named Vojta Dukat.

We were told he was great but little-known, an idiosyncratic, elusive character. We were lucky, he just happened to be in Prague at the time from his home in The Hague, Netherlands, where he had emigrated after the 1968 Soviet invasion of Prague. [Note: I’ll save you the time, he doesn’t have a website or much online.]

He came into the classroom, all massive beard and rumpled overcoat, and said to us ‘ok, I will show you my photos’.

He pulled a stack of small work prints from a plastic bag in his coat pocket and spread them haphazardly across the table for us to look at. The printing paper was nothing fancy.

I was floored. Each image was quietly evocative, loaded with old-world mystery, timelessness, and atmosphere. As good as any work I’d ever seen.

This was the direction I craved for my own work. So later that same day I urgently sought him out to get feedback, hoping he’d both affirm my talent and impart to me some secret-sauce wisdom to elevate my game. After all, I was already a ‘professional’ photographer, at a workshop alongside amateurs.

Maybe you can see where this is going.

On that sunny day I found him in a darkened basement pub just steps away from Charles Bridge. After patiently looking through my portfolio, he matter-of-factly dismissed my work — and dismantled my ego — in a matter of minutes.

“I’m sorry, but these photos don’t do anything for me.”

Floored again. I know what you’re thinking. As many friends suggested later, I could ignore his opinion, ‘screw that guy telling you about your art’.

But I had asked, even chased him down - and in that instant I understood completely that he was right. My pictures were a somewhat disjointed hodgepodge of photojournalism outtakes. Something I might offer a photo editor to show how I could handle a range of assignments. It wasn’t that they were bad (they weren’t) but that it simply wasn’t the cohesive, poetic vision I was seeking.

I was in anguish. It wouldn’t be until a bit later that I would recognize the gift he had given me.

I resolved that instead of breaking me it would drive me to play the long game, I would be relentless in setting the bar higher and digging deeper. For the next ten years or so that’s what I did.

Not to be more him but to be more me. I actually started the next day, photographing Prague’s tourist carnival that I would normally flee from.

It was a start. Over time I did get not just better and more stylistically coherent photos - what I now call authorship - but a deeper understanding of how your sensibility needs to infuse your work. This is something I learned not just from Vojta but from Viktor Kolar, another amazing Czech photographer I met at the Prague workshop. Viktor to me is maybe the epitome of quiet poetry in photography, and finding that poetry in your own environment (in his case, his industrial hometown of Ostrava).

When I started in photography Josef Koudelka was one of my first inspirations, maybe the best-known Czech photographer. He’s a master of intense, surrealist poetry culled from life. So I owe a lot to the Czechs, and I like them, which is I guess why I talk about them a lot.

Personal vision became the cornerstone of photography and my teaching. You get better when you become more you. The world doesn’t need more cookie-cutter images.

And it started in part with one guy’s simple but brutal honesty, that thankfully I chose to embrace rather than reject. I have had many who inspired me, but he was perhaps the most pivotal.

Um, cool story Bill but why are you telling it now, so many years later?

Because in the summer of 2024 I ran into Vojta by chance in a Dutch train station.

Yep. While visiting in-laws in The Hague, my daughter and I were scrambling through the main train station on our way somewhere, searching frantically for our platform. As we came down a long escalator, out of the corner of my eye I saw a bearded older guy with a walker way down below in the crowd. He was headed for the elevator, three more seconds and he would have been out of sight and gone.

There was no question in my mind. I called his name.

We had just been in Prague and I had talked about Vojta with my old Czech photographer friend, who happens to be good friends with him. He had mentioned Vojta was doing well but had had some kind of bad injury recently. Now here he was, just days later. Crazy.

I wouldn’t say we had a profound conversation and he didn’t particularly remember me. The whole thing was over in a few minutes. I did manage to thank him, briefly recount our previous encounter (I think I stuck with something like ‘you looked at my pictures and it helped me a lot’), and talk about our mutual friend in Prague. I made sure my daughter took a few photos. As his bus pulled up and he hobbled off, he winked and shouted his email address.

I was floored once more (for old times’ sake). I couldn’t get my head around it. What did it mean? Something just came full-circle, what was karma trying to tell me? I have no idea. Maybe it was just a cool coincidence.

Curious about Czech photography? It’s a fascinating and unique creative legacy, with strong roots in surrealism, going back at least a century to the one-armed ‘poet of Prague’ Josef Sudek. Check out the great Fototorst book series, which includes Sudek and the only readily available book of Vojta’s work (my Prague workshop instructor, a well-known US photographer and educator, was equally struck by the work and offered to help him get published but Vojta replied ‘I don’t think you are the one to discover me’). Other photographers I recommend include Josef Koudelka, Karel Cudlin, Tomki Nemec, Bohdan Holomicek, and Viktor Kolar.

A Few Updates

December 6, 2025

Has it been almost a month since I last posted a newsletter?? I guess I should be used to the swings by now, some weeks the ideas and words flow more than others.

It’s not like there hasn’t been stuff going on. Let me at least play catch up this week.

(This is actually the 2.0 version of this post. Squarespace glitched when I tried to save my first finished draft, lost everything. Which was awesome.)

Music

We managed one more Vocal Takoma popup song/poem circle recently before the weather turned too cold. This time with an actual PA, thanks to a battery generator the city bought for us. It made a huge difference in, you know, people *hearing* us.

*Bill Crandall and David Alberto Fernández*

Vocal Takoma is not really a group, there’s a small core but it’s more like whoever shows up. And anyone with a song or poem can step up (as they have). My partner-in-art David Alberto Fernandez is using his poet laureate status to try to expand what poetry is and what it can do, especially in this moment we’re in. The idea is putting art where people already are, sort of soapbox-style, helping artists be more seen/heard/vocal. Now we’re moving the model indoors for the winter, figuring out what that might look like.

Some exciting possibilities, stay tuned. I actually believe the revolution starts with stuff like this. See the Czechs' playwright president or the the Singing Revolution in the Baltics.

Photography

I’m part of a group show with the Takoma Artery collective that’s opening at our local community center on Friday. I’ll have 2-3 photos from my Nairobi body of work, one made the lead in our local newspaper.

Freelancing

Since I do have to start making some money asap, I’ve been gearing up for photo freelancing again. Even though I did it for so many years, I don’t really know what freelancing means anymore or what the prospects are. Guess we’ll see. I’m starting a portrait service out of my art-garage studio for starters, and I’ve added some portraits and events photo samples to my site. More soon.

Let me know if you’re looking for:

a new headshot
creative documentation of you, your project/event/band/book, business, etc
photo mentoring or consulting
a quick workshop on getting better photos with your phone, or a more advanced one on being a ‘photo author’
copy photos of your artwork

I offer discounts for the needy. Like fired federal workers, of which there are thousands in these parts. In our small neighborhood alone - one small pocket of one small town right outside DC - a neighbor told me he knew of maybe a dozen families with one or both breadwinners thrown out of work. With mortgages and kids at university.

You can also support me by buying prints from this site for your holiday shopping, take a look here and see what strikes you. With a few clicks you can have high-quality framed photos delivered, as I’m doing for my Takoma Artery show prints.

I guess one common thread in all this is starting where you are. I love where I live, and I’m still happy to be reconnecting and figuring out the path forward since living overseas. I’ve been trying to walk more and I got a Capital Bikeshare membership, the e-bikes help me get around this hilly town. Fit I am not.

Another thread is how in times like these it’s important to attach yourself to groups to leverage your efforts. Don’t always try to go it alone. Even my new garage studio I’m planning to use as a community art-hub.

Power on, people. The horrors are daily and the hope can seem like slim pickings, but focus on those moments when it feels like just maybe things are starting to tip back towards sanity and light, and give it a little flap of the proverbial butterfly’s wing. On other (worse) days, make some art, it helps. Talk to you soon.

Introducing Vocal Takoma

November 9, 2025

Well that was a fun Sunday.

No newsletter this morning as I was getting ready for a full creative day today. This afternoon was the second session of my six-week in-person photo workshop, See For Yourself. Sorry, I was too locked-in teaching it to take photos, but it’s an awesome group and a great way to inaugurate my garage studio space. Next time I’ll try to take some BTS pics.

This morning before the workshop though was a new collab with some neighbors in Takoma Park. Vocal Takoma (aka VT) is like a pop-up song and poetry circle - or maybe a group busk but not for money - held in active public space. So for starters that meant near our Sunday morning farmers’ market.

VT was conceived by myself and my friend David Alberto Fernandez, who is the new poet laureate of Takoma Park. Yes, we have not only the coolest community radio station around, but a town poet laureate. We wanted a way for artists to come together and to show people art is still kicking. Instead of a venue we take it to where people already are. We want them to see and hear us, and take note that artists are activating, doing something a bit unexpected. Maybe a song/poem/spoken word circle sounds like kumbaya but I have to say while it’s fun there’s a steeliness to it as well.

The idea is a rotating, inclusive ensemble that will have some core participants but change from week to week and even have an open-mic component. We had a lot of interest from other local singers/musicians and poets but due to various conflicts the launch was just three poets - David, Claudia Gary, and Alan Abrams - plus me playing songs. It went very well and it was great to get it going. We did it totally acoustic, no amplification. Soapbox style. Which was a challenge to project but had a certain integrity and intimacy. Still, we’ll hopefully have a battery generator by next time so we can use a little amp, especially those with quieter voices.

While in a way VT is an art action for the times, it’s not directly or overly political. We feel like art doesn’t need to be - and maybe shouldn’t be - political to do its job. Sure, there’s some protest in there as well. Though via songs, poems, and spoken word, it’s just a way of asserting our voices - being Vocal - in support of life, art, our values, and our community. And a model for starting where we are.

A few beautiful moments happened along the way. The shop owner nearby brought out a portrait of her mother, who was a Turkish poet.

David Camero was in jester garb entertaining the kiddos near the spot we were using at the clock tower. We didn’t realize he was also a tremendous local artist and poet, he ended up shifting gears and taking a couple of turns with us.

Come by and check it out some Sunday (we may move to indoor spots as the weather turns). Or, better yet, bring a song or poem of your own.

One song I did was Fortune and Glory, written long ago by an old friend and a band I was in (The Mondays) recorded it. It’s among a batch of such ‘legacy songs’ I’ve been resurrecting, I think it translates well to our moment:

I know a thing or two

Yeah me and you

We just want the truth

And need much more

Than fortune and glory too

I think you can see

What you mean to me

In a world not free

Baby you're worth more

Than fortune and glory too

Right from the start

We knew we had understanding

The hardest part

Is knowing that our day will come

So don't lose heart

New York City is Beautiful

November 1, 2025

Writing from New York City this weekend. As I’ve been discussing photo ‘authorship’ lately in my posts and my in-person workshop, NY is an interesting case study.

What are you going to shoot there that a) hasn’t been done a thousand times by some of the greatest photographers who ever lived, or b) doesn’t recycle past notions of what the city actually is now?

For years I couldn’t photograph in the city at all. Not one picture. Basically I couldn’t answer those questions for myself, so I was completely paralyzed, short-circuited. I didn’t have a point of view, couldn’t even fathom what that might be.

In the middle chunk of the 20th century there was something called the New York School in photography. It wasn’t a school but sort of a very loose, retroactive grouping of photographers, over several decades, who brought new visual approaches to representing the ever-evolving city. There is some debate over who falls into that ‘school’, and it’s unlikely they thought of themselves as such at the time, but some better-known names include Saul Leiter, Louis Faurer, Diane Arbus, Bruce Davidson, William Klein, Helen Levitt, Robert Frank, and Weegee.

*Diane Arbus photographing at a beauty pageant, by William Gedney*

Photo-authors all. Not describing but interpreting the city, expressing their ideas in personal ways. What united them was a fascination with the city’s complex character and energy and how to convey it in pictures with new visual vocabulary. There was a lot of film noir influence, motion blur, abstraction, layering, graininess, chiaroscuro (contrast of light and dark), and surrealism, combined with a tough-minded humanism.

Places change of course. Like the mid-century Paris of berets, cafes, and baguettes, the New York they knew is gone. It’s a different beast now and requires new visual vocabulary.

So what to do? I remember first visiting then-derelict New York in the early 80s and being somewhat shocked and terrified, but at least it had that CBGBs seedy-but-cool thing. Now it’s more like the terror of banality, too many puffy coats and Disney-fication gone amok. Good luck finding counterculture (or maybe I’m just old), or anything other than shopping or places to otherwise spend your money. At least it’s cleaner.

Some years ago I photographed New York for a European magazine that wanted to show how certain areas were being cleaned up and modernized. Bike lanes, waterfronts, pedestrian zones, that sort of thing. Actually a refreshing take, usually foreign editors go looking for the wacky American extremes.

While shooting I remember thinking, wow, parts of this city are actually QUITE NICE now. Maybe even, dare I say it, beautiful.

Don’t get me wrong, as a series title I don’t mean New York is Beautiful literally. I don’t know, maybe sardonic is the word. Of course New York is not conventionally beautiful and probably never will be. No sane New Yorker, even those who love it, would say it is beautiful. It’s almost anti-beautiful.

But as a contradictory statement, that half serious, half tongue-in-cheek notion finally gave me a starting point. NYIB is actually *two* contrasting sets from the last 10-15 years.

One that I’ve posted about before is experimental. They’re in my print gallery if you want one over your sofa. If you don’t feel like clicking through, here they are:

To me those are a nod to the disorienting, queasy, almost sci-fi dystopia I first experienced. A city out of control, that I could imagine collapsing on itself. I mean I grew up on The Warriors and Escape from New York. But the visual effect is also beautiful. It’s actually a fairly simple analog technique via one of my former students: shooting through cheap kaleidoscope sunglasses I found in a museum gift shop.

To call New York beautiful - or to make it look strangely beautiful - you need something stronger than rose-colored glasses. Maybe kaleidoscope glasses are more up to the job.

The other NYIB set I’ve sat on for a while, I’m showing them here for the first time. It’s sort of the opposite approach: still NY-as-Oz but direct not abstract. Not trying too hard to be something. More like low-key, calm observations that have grown on me.

It’s been helpful to chew on these over time. Even put them aside for a few years to gain some distance. They’re certainly not eye-candy as much as the first set, it’s a very different ‘language’. A couple of bangers maybe but overall leaving room for quieter pics to breathe. Circling back to it now through an authorship lens, they at least feel like mine, that they belong together, and they feel true. Sometimes it takes a while to add up.

Or do they add up? Not sure what they ultimately say about NY, but then again I’m not sure what I ultimately feel about it. Walking around this evening, before my Sunday morning post tomorrow, I had the usual feeling of being simultaneously attracted to and repulsed by the city and the people. We passed through formerly tattered St Marks Place, which I first saw in its grungy punk heyday. It’s spiffed up now, does that make it better or worse?

The city is both impressive and hopeless. Uniquely vibrant and utterly pointless. Fascinating and boring. Energizing and tiring. After a few days I’ve usually had enough.

One could never say everything about New York in photos, that’s for sure. Sort of like the country as a whole, anything you might say is probably both true and false, depending on who you are and how/where/when you look at it.

Both true and false. Sort of like the statement New York is Beautiful.

Saul Leiter seemed to get that with New York you finally give up on sweeping, profound statements. When he got older he was known for mostly semi-abstract color street scenes, content to stay more or less in one neighborhood. In a poignant line in a lovely documentary about Leiter in his final years, he says “if I didn’t do anything more than make my little [photo] book, wouldn’t that have been enough?”.

Bringing It Home

October 18, 2025

My in-person photo workshop starts next weekend, to be held over six Sunday afternoons. As I write this, I’ve got two slots available. Please spread the word. If you or someone you know is interested, I’d love to have you. More info is here.

Came across the above photo while setting up for my workshop. It’s from a 2001 collaboration in Minsk I conceived with Karel Cudlin and the late Uladzimir Parfianok. We seem pretty relaxed, must have been maybe a day or two before our joint exhibit opened *on 9/11*. It was the Czech cultural attache who - soon after the US embassy guy abruptly stopped talking to me and dashed from the gallery - told me ‘planes are hitting buildings’ in the US.

It was a modest endeavor but our goal was more grandiose - establishing the documentary photography tradition in post-Soviet Belarus. The idea of photographers as sensitive, critical, humanistic observers, especially in repressive societies. Documentary photography was not well-known there at the time, due to their history there was state-controlled media photography, a bit of conceptual fine-art photography, and not a lot in-between. We tried to nurture the basic idea that photographers should be out there showing their reality in expressive ways.

And it worked.

Over the next ten years or so a young generation of photographers did emerge. I’m not saying we did that entirely, it could have happened organically anyway, but I know we planted seeds. I’m not sure we could do it today, the repression is much worse there now since the clampdown following the 2020 election. Yes, back in 2001 there was the KGB and bad things could happen to you, but if you weren’t political (as I wasn’t) you could do a lot. I even had sympathetic state media coverage of one of my solo exhibitions there, probably because it was exotic that an American even cared about everyday Belarus.

I don’t think I would (or could) set foot in Belarus these days, sadly. Uladzimir, my late curator friend who organized our shows and collabs, once smiled and told me Belarus was more of a ‘soft’ dictatorship. Certainly much harder now. In a way, working there showed me so much about how repression takes root but how resilience does as well.

Never thought the lessons would feel so pertinent.

In Nairobi I did something similar. I held a photo workshop for young photographers from the huge Kibera slum, who are carrying the torch for telling their own authentic stories both in Kibera and fast-changing Nairobi in general. They are the new wave of Kenyan storytellers, working from the inside, developing their own visual vocabulary. We’ve become friends, I continue to mentor a few of them and I’m sure we’ll keep looking for ways to collaborate.

I’m about to launch a new workshop series here in the US, a compression of my past teaching curriculum. Not that we don’t have plenty of photographers, we certainly do. And a strong tradition of documentary, including the Farm Security Administration photographers that fanned out across the country during the Depression. Still, as I been posting over the last two weeks, I believe what’s needed is a reboot of photography’s purpose, based on personal authorship, in our age of overwhelming image saturation and looming AI.

*The photobook reading room is part of my new workshop space*

In Belarus, it was about reflecting a country in a moment not just of repression but identity crisis following the end of the Soviet Union. In Nairobi, notoriously difficult to penetrate (for example until not long ago it wasn’t even legal to photograph on the street without a permit), it’s a matter of getting the real stories from a growing African city with an increasingly glossy image but a massive gap in who that growth helps.

In the US it’s a somewhat different task in a different moment. Photography can be about reclaiming our agency, as so many forces are conspiring to smother us, numb us, and detach us from life. Not just the turn toward authoritarianism but more generally consumerism, conformity, and our dependence on screen-life.

Deeply reconnecting with real life and our surroundings - and even our inner selves - could be revolutionary. As I’ve written, photography can help do that. It relies on those connections and it’s a natural remedy for much of what ails us. In a way it’s a question of rediscovering photography’s unique potential but also how to carry it forward in new ways.

Happily, developing those personal connections is also the way to make your pictures better. Making them more you.

In a way I’m paying it forward for those who helped me do the same. While getting the workshop space ready - and going through a ton of odds and ends since getting back - I found postcards I received long ago from my own photo mentors, encouraging me in my strivings for a more personal vision. One is from the legendary French photographer Marc Riboud in 2007, before he passed away a few years ago. My wife and I had been lucky to become friends with him, this is from after visiting him in Paris with our then-infant daughter:

The other is from the great Czech photographer Viktor Kolar, who I had met in Prague when I was first seeking my own transition from photojournalism to a more personal approach. As always, he put it best.

*Maasai near Mt Kilimanjaro (background), southern Kenya.*
***Authorship notes*** — I was on a wildlife drive in a national park but I’m a terrible wildlife photographer. Ideas and intentions are important. Mine center on people, our relationship with the landscape, and not wanting to do what others do (like posing the Maasai, which also usually involves paying them). So I jumped when I recognized this as ‘my’ photo.

Notes from the Photo Revolution - More on Authorship

October 11, 2025

“Revolution? How can photography be a revolutionary act? I thought you said photography sucks!”

Ok, yes, in my last post I led with ‘we don’t need more photographers’ and ‘most photography sucks’.

Which of course was meant to provoke but it’s unfortunately true. As I said, we have way more photography than ever and most (not all) of it is more or less interchangeable. Everyone seem to be lining up to take the same photos as everyone else.

*Traffic jam near cheetahs, Amboseli National Park, southern Kenya.*

I want to expand more on the idea of photo-authors, whose work is centered on their unique vision and ideas. I believe this is an approach anyone can take, regardless of their experience and skill level, if they want their work to be rewarding and to stand out.

It’s about making your work better by making it more you.

To me, this is the only reason to do serious photography. Otherwise you might consider doing something else.

Maybe revolution can start with resurrection. Resurrecting both photography and ourselves. Hear me out, let’s dig deeper on a few levels. How do we actually become a photo-author?

First, we need to remind ourselves what photography requires of us.

Photography begins not with cameras but with observation. An elevated state of keen, conscious noticing, driven by curiosity.

In general, most people don’t really see, or even bother to look except at the obvious. But while paying quality attention is a fading art, it’s something anyone can train themselves to do. First you notice things (like an interesting tree or person), then less tangible things like the quality and direction of light. Then you start seeing visual relationships between things, and between things and what’s around them, and that’s when it gets good.

Once you start doing this it’s hard to stop. What do you notice that others don’t?

*Underpass, Minsk, Belarus.*
***Authorship notes*** *— When you see ‘your’ photo in the visual relationships and the moment, it can require courage to pull it off. Be prepared to ask forgiveness not permission.*

These days, one of the main problems with noticing in the Age of Screens is our increasing detachment from what is actually around us. I think this is a major aspect that is not talked about enough in the context of creativity. In my last few years of teaching photography I saw a significant decline in my young students’ interest in their surroundings, their basic visual curiosity. Especially after COVID.

To a degree they’ve swapped it for what’s in the little box in their hand. Don’t scoff, we have too.

The way devices put the world in our hand is miraculous — and an existential problem for photography, which has always thrived on celebration of the everyday. How can the everyday compete with the bling of anything-anytime? Who cares about the slice of life in front of me when the whole pie is in my hand?

We are getting re-wired. Fight it.

After observation comes engagement.

What do you do with what you see? This is where your visual vocabulary comes into play. Playing with light, composition, angle, moment, etc.

But don’t stop there. Photography is not just pictures. It’s about who we are. It’s directly tied to our compassion, humility, openness, courage, curiosity, experience, and worldview.

Photography asks for rigorous engagement with real life. Photographers have to get out there, and are supposed to be both sensitive and tough observers/interpreters of the world and the human condition. Beauty-seekers, truth-tellers, story-tellers, like any artist.

*Collective farm worker, Belarus.*
***Authorship notes*** — This was born of failure mixed with mindfulness and courage. We asked to photograph at a Soviet-style farm, while we were waiting to be refused by the director, this guy was standing behind me. I didn’t ask, I just took it quickly from very close range. He wasn’t bothered and I went home with a photo after all. At my exhibition in Minsk, a young Belarusian guy said it captured “not just this man but my country in this man”. Right before another woman told me I didn’t have a clue about Belarus. Win some lose some.

Pretty only goes so far. To really elevate your work, you will need to challenge yourself on deeper levels.

If we can agree photography is a tool for reconnection with the world and life, I’d say that’s the first thing that needs resurrecting. What’s next?

Photography is a tool for reconnecting with ourselves.

Just as we’ve become detached from our surroundings, we’ve become detached from our inner selves. To become an effective visual author, it’s critical to re-establish those threads to our imaginings, tastes, ideas, dreams, instincts, memories, wishes, even our pain. Then try to channel that into your work.

Notice what you are drawn to, and not drawn to. Experiment. Trust your instincts. But also challenge your instincts.

Yep, sorry, you might need better instincts. I did.

If we snap to a screen any time we have a spare moment, we are denying ourselves those moments of personal headspace — including boredom and its creative benefits — that allow our own thoughts to percolate instead of always fielding the barrage of incoming information.

Just as anyone can learn better noticing of their surroundings, anyone can train themselves in the habit of tuning inward — noticing and nurturing their inner landscape instead of relentless external distraction and a growing aversion to our authentic selves.

In other words, photography requires mindfulness. Photography IS mindfulness.

I made a transition to personal authorship after I had been a professional photojournalist for about six years. I had some un-learning to do and some reconnecting with my original inspirations and impulses. I sought out feedback from a very select few, even if that feedback was painful at times. I shed my ego in order to rebuild from scratch. It took time, it’s a long game.

*Parade rehearsal, Minsk, Belarus.*
***Authorship notes*** *— I was surrounded by at least ten other photographers who didn’t react to this. Maybe they did see it but it wasn’t ‘their’ photo. It was definitely mine, I ran toward it.*

But something interesting happened. I had been working regularly and doing fine, but I felt like I was hitting the wall and not advancing. Soon after I consciously planted my flag on my own way of doing things, I began to become more successful.

I started getting more exhibitions, awards, and opportunities like artist talks. I got a photo teaching job with no teaching experience. I made a photo book on Belarus that won an award and opened more doors. People do look at you differently when you have a good book.

Who makes books? Authors, visual or otherwise.

If there is to be a photo revolution — one that can contribute to photography’s relevance as an art form in the age of AI — it will come from photo authors. Those who dig deeper to inspire and surprise us with work that is more personal, authentic, unique, and powerfully human.

Anyone can do it.

Your current experience level is not important. If you are just starting, you are more open to ideas and the tech learning curve is not steep anymore anyway. You might be better off, often professional photographers are more set in their ways.

Your choice of camera is not important, any camera is fine if you’re comfortable with it.

There are basic building blocks to consider in pursuit of authorship:

Developing your ideas
Making your work personal
Reconnecting with the world, your inner self, and other people
Being relentless, willing to push yourself
Not letting ego get in the way
Recognizing ‘your’ photos
Not making photos that you think others want to see. That’s the kiss of mediocrity. Bend people to your vision.
Your attitude toward your subject (as Miles Davis said, “It’s not the note, it’s the attitude of the motherf**ker playing the note”)

We’ve seen it all. What do YOU want to show us and how? How is it different from what we expect to see? How does it resonate with your passions and point of view?

Only you can figure that out.

Can photography change the world? I don’t know. Probably not.

What do you think?

People talk about how it creates awareness. I don’t think the problem is that we’re not aware. I think we need inspiration.

Mystery, magic, stories, and surprises in photography or any art form. To be swept up in a well-honed vision of life and the world, to help us believe in ourselves and the future.

Photography can change you, start there.

You don’t have to be or aspire to be a ‘real’ photographer. Certainly not a ‘professional’, I don’t really know what that means anymore.

What the world calls for is energized, creative, empathetic observers reclaiming our agency and connection.

I know photography has definitely changed me — years of looking at it, doing it, trying to do it better, teaching it. I am a different (I would say better) person because of photography, and a better photographer as a result. It has become my way of understanding the world and trying to put that understanding into visual form. I’ve seen it change my students.

The deeper you go, the more it changes you.

If you’re doing it well, it might just change others as well.

Pretty revolutionary.

More info on my upcoming photo workshop here.

*2007 (If you’ve been to Prague, you can guess what they’re looking at. How many phone cameras would there be in the same scene today?)*

We Don't Need More Photographers

October 4, 2025

[Author’s note: This week is part 1 (part 2 next week) of what I would call my photo manifesto. I’ve published a version of the piece below on Medium and Substack earlier in the year but not in this space yet.

It coincides with the launch of my upcoming photo workshop - a six-week, in-person, small-group format called See For Yourself - on October 26 in Takoma Park. It’s a kind of distillation of my 15-year teaching career, it resembles an indie version of my advanced Photo Seminar class at Maret. If you’re interested, a PDF with more info is here. Act fast, I’ve already got a few people in the pipeline and space is limited to six participants. The focus is on developing a personal approach and, more broadly, reclaiming our agency and vibrancy through photography. In brief, as I put in the overview:

Photography is energetic engagement with the world, other people, and ourselves. The quality of the photos reflects the quality of that engagement, and the ability to translate that engagement visually.

Photography is not just pictures, it’s a stance: curiosity, empathy, mindfulness, a worldview. That's a revolutionary stance.

All experience levels welcome!

I’d been wrestling with the idea of online courses for a while, finally I decided IRL is the way. So for now that’s what I’m doing. I have a new boho studio/meeting/music/photo library space that I’m excited to inaugurate.]

“Most photography today sucks. We are drowning in pictures, too many of them formulaic, banal, or mediocre. We have enough, we should just stop. Why bother?”

Over my 15-year photo teaching career, I would sometimes start my classes for the year with statements like these. They were meant to provoke my new students and get their attention.

Wait, our photo teacher thinks photography sucks??

Well, consider some of the greats of 20th century photography, just to name a few: Gordon Parks, Josef Koudelka, Diane Arbus, Daido Moriyama, Ansel Adams, Mary Ellen Mark. They had very different strengths, skill sets, and circumstances but each had a powerful, singular voice. It is quite easy to identify their photos just by looking at them. That’s what made them great.

Today you’d be forgiven for thinking that much of what you see out there (usually online) was taken by the same person. Pretty perhaps, maybe even visually interesting, but too often not compelling or distinctive. Weak sauce.

Of course there is powerful and sensitive imagery being made on a regular basis by talented photographers, but you need to dig for it. There are young photographers across Africa carrying the torch. Finding new visual vocabularies and telling their own stories. I know because I met a few of them at a workshop I gave in Nairobi.

But the firehose of images made every day is drowning out the good stuff, making it harder to find — and even slowly chipping away at the very notion of ‘good stuff’. If it’s true that everyone’s a photographer now, maybe it means no one is. I hope it’s not controversial that today’s ease and sheer quantity of image-making has been democratizing photography but not necessarily making it better.

Of course, from a DIY standpoint this democratization is a dream come true and traditional gatekeepers are an elitist vestige of the past to be vanquished. So that gets complicated, and this is not a piece advocating for gatekeepers.

Still, I do believe my provocative statements, to a degree, with plenty of caveats. Of course anyone should do what brings them joy, in any way they like. There are countless ways and reasons to make pictures. Doing it just for fun is fine, in fact I encourage people to do photography for themselves. Any camera will do. Sometimes so-called professional photography is the worst.

As a practice, photography has become much less of an artisanal craft but is still a tremendous mindfulness exercise. Being attentive to beauty, other people, and our surroundings has its rewards for our well-being. Those are good reasons right there.

Yet “why bother?” was a question I posed to my students. Why strive and struggle to make images just like those that have been made by others, over and over, for decades, so they keep piling up?

We don’t need more ‘photographers’.

Meaning those who want to be famous (does anyone really believe this?) or rich (extremely unlikely), who are obsessed with equipment or technique (I assure you it’s not about cameras or f-stops).

**What we need are photo-authors.**

Those able, even determined, to show us their vision and ideas in new and surprising ways.

Those with the courage — because courage is required — to infuse their images with their sensibility. Their unique point of view, personality, stories, and ideas. This means a continuous deep dive into yourself in parallel with figuring out how to put that into your work.

As the great Czech photographer Viktor Kolar once told me, “if you want to elevate your photography to something more spiritual, develop your sensibility and learn how to make it visual.”

It’s really not about who can make the ‘best’ photos anymore. Those days are over. To use a music metaphor, imagine one of those TV singing contests like American Idol. Think about the panel of judges deciding who hit their high notes the best and checked certain boxes. Usually they sound mostly alike and will not have much impact on the listener.

Too often, that’s photography.

Now imagine, say, a young, unknown Bob Dylan taking the stage on American Idol. His lyrics, voice, guitar playing, and demeanor utterly idiosyncratic, unconventional, even contrary to the notion of ‘good’. Doing things completely on his own terms. He would probably get yanked off-stage. Yet he became one of the most celebrated musical poets of all time, with vast impact and influence across decades and genres.

Which one do you want to be?

Don’t worry, you don’t have to call yourself a ‘photo-author’ out loud, it does sound a bit pretentious. Not the kind of thing one says. Use ‘photographer’ but think of yourself as an author. It can be your undercover identity as a art-spy.

Being an author of course requires having ideas, which for many people is a scary prospect: “What if I don’t, or what if they’re no good??” Rest assured, you don’t have to know what your ideas are in advance. But you can still commit to developing them as a vital part of your process, and they will come.

I didn’t used to have ideas. Now I can’t keep up with them.

It’s a transformative process that asks more of you than simply shooting a lot and hoping to get some ‘good ones’ to show off. Don’t stop there, as many do. The main reason photographers don’t advance beyond technical competence is failure to wrestle with their ideas.

Photography is a kind of return on investment — in yourself.

Often ego gets in the way just as photography gets hard. People would often prefer to convince themselves their pictures are good enough as-is, rather than do the difficult — even painful — personal and creative work to make them next-level better.

WHY are you photographing, what are your goals, intentions, and ideas? This comes from your critical thinking, your observations, your instincts, your dreams. What books you’re reading, films you’re watching, music you’re listening to.

HOW do you make your ideas as visually effective as possible? This includes basic technique, but also finding your own strategies, visual approaches, and experimentation. How you interact with people and your surroundings. These also take courage, the world right now is not an easy or safe place for critical observers.

If all of this seems daunting, keep in mind that even my youngest photo students — 14-15 year-olds who would get kind of wide-eyed when I said these sorts of things — were able to understand the quest, and forge the beginnings of a personal vision. Sometimes in just a few months they began to make and recognize ‘their’ images. Sometimes right away. Usually not consistently or with technical polish. But their best images were mysterious, evocative, sensitive, curious, poetic, raw, compassionate, suggestive. And this was darkroom photography, where you have to do twenty things right even to make a bad picture.

Which are all great reasons to bother. I could look at my students’ best work all day long (which of course is what I did). These were not sunsets, kittens in a basket, or overworked Photoshop contrivances (or, god help us, AI fabrications).

We don’t need more eye candy or sentimentality in the world. As Viktor Kolar also liked to say, sentimentality won’t save us.

If you want to know how to make your work better, make it more personal.

In a world where truth, intelligence, decency, and hope are under siege, I would argue we need all of the arts to assert a new humanism, a word which has fallen out of fashion over the years. A newly confident, savvy humanism springing from beauty, poetry, and solidarity. But not soft, it’s the new punk-rock stance. Ready for a street fight with the alternative.

The unique ability of photography to reflect our world in profound ways can be reclaimed by skilled and committed photo-authors — who can also help reclaim our zeitgeist from cynicism, despair, and pervasive dark trends. And in the process maybe even help us imagine a better future.

Is that all a bit much? Ok, maybe. But hasn’t the world dimmed a bit since smartphones/cameras and selfie culture took over, and the stream of mediocre images became a barrage?

Ok, or since David Bowie died. Coincidence?

*I admit my beard game has slipped since someone made this of me a couple months ago.*

New World Voyage

September 21, 2025

After playing in parks and open mics abroad over the summer to get fit, I’m back in the New World and excited to report I have a proper gig coming up. Am I ready to play for two hours? (Just flew in from Nairobi and boy are my arms tired, ba-da-boom-crash.) Guess we’ll find out!

‘Hey Bill, I don’t really know what kind of music you play.’ Good question, it doesn’t fit a neat genre. All original, I call it future-folk. I mean it’s indie rock of sorts played on acoustic guitar, not much actual folk in there. But they are songs that strive to reflect the times, carry us forward, and help imagine the future.

My musical ambitions are way different than when I was younger: now it’s not fame but the doing. Art at the community level. IRL. An element of storytelling. An element of art-warrioring in our current moment. The way making music makes me feel as a whole body-mind-spirit endeavor. And of course any shows should be nice and early, especially on a weeknight.

It’s also about resistance. As I’m reading right now in the book “How to Fall in Love with the Future”, artists must be part of imagining a positive future and helping us get there. I just read a part early on about a 95-year-old woman who was part of the French Resistance. She said her comrades had one thing in common:

“They were all optimists”.

If you’re in the area, I hope you’ll join me, I’m hoping to help activate Takoma Bev Co as a low-key music hub, in a 60s coffeehouse spirit. It’s perfect for it.

My life has always been a push-and-pull between photography and making music. I’ve played in bands my whole life but solo-Bill started with my 2016 concept album New World Voyage, about the first people to leave Earth forever for Mars.

Spoiler: a terrible idea (Mars, not the album).

One song imagines the morning/mourning of departure, the crew getting their heads around the enormity of what they’re doing, of the whole human enterprise coming to this point:

I send my soul

Amended heart

I know there'll be a place for us

To start anew, I couldn't without you

From the shore

Through a forest of fallen gods

Is this the only path for us?

A way to pass through, on our way to You?

It’s a music album but also an art project. There’s a 40-page PDF booklet about their journey, using my photos, NASA photos, drawings by my daughter, and a ‘communications log’ suggesting more about their fate.

https://billcrandall.bandcamp.com/album/new-world-voyage

WAMU wrote about it at the time:

http://bandwidth.wamu.org/space-isnt-the-place-mistochord-scores-a-fraught-migration-to-mars/

I wondered who would do such a thing, leave Earth? I imagined one crew member as a formerly trafficked woman trying to get as far from her demons as possible:

Feeling a landslide

Bartered and sold

Once in a nighttime

Waits to be told

Wants to love again

To take control

Wants to break this ordinary hold

My thesis was the crew would be semi-deranged by the time they arrived, hallucinating and speaking in gibberish. Dealing with injuries or deaths or pregnancies on their one-way, months-long journey. But the biggest challenges being psychological as they grow increasingly numb and lose their shit:

Hold my face

Stood and found a laden dog

Cool eyes wait

Dead he said and walls that talk

I don’t know how much I care

I don’t know how much I can understand

One of my self-imposed concept parameters (ok, that we didn’t fully adhere to) was that it should be conceivable that the music you hear was made aboard the ship. Meaning they may have smuggled in a guitar or a mini-keyboard but there wouldn’t be, say, a drum kit. So for example any beats should sound like they were made by the ship itself, the mechanized environment.

We used public-domain recordings by NASA Voyager as a ‘bed’ to many tracks, so you feel like you’re onboard. Yes, I know, there’s no sound in space. The best way I can explain it is that as it hurtled past the planets, Voyager recorded space frequencies, the solar winds, that could be translated into audio.

Interestingly, different planets have different audio character. Mars sounds more sinister than Earth.

Then the big ‘now what?’ moment - how in the hell to strip away all those studio layers to play the songs live as solo acoustic, something I had little experience with. That’s been a learning curve, and still is.

The songs written since have been more ‘meanwhile back on Earth’, more grounded in love and solidarity in changing times. The underlying climate theme is hand-in-hand with creeping fascism:

Come and take me out of here

Come and take me slow

We’ll take our time as voices near the window

Cranes collapse and faults collide

Small boats are not safe

We’ll take the road at mud tide as you say

Lovers separated by war in Bosnia, as the waters rise:

Great green river cuts through the town

On its way forward

The past rushed over, submerged

You know I can’t quite find you

My breath is still inside you

A kind of storm

My newest song takes a more warrior stance:

Bring on another time another day

It may not soothe me

Open up my eyes to find a way

It don’t confuse me

Going in with eyes wide open

Gonna blow this thing wide open

My solo ‘career’ (cough) is now in roughly year ten, still gets me out of bed in the morning. Making any art is part being in the present and part creating the future. Standing up for the kind of world I want.

Yeah, I do use the word imagine a lot.

As bell hooks said, “What we cannot imagine cannot come into being”.

DC Shirts - More Colors and Sizes

August 31, 2025

Back in occupied DC. Well, just over the line in Maryland, I haven’t really ventured into the city proper yet. On social media I did read about a few ICE sightings and police checkpoints nearby but it hasn’t hit me in the face yet. Seems the National Guard is mostly on mulch duty closer to downtown.

Last week I posted my new DC t-shirt design, an homage to ACDC borrowing their logo font and lightning bolt. I’ve just added two new darker colors - ‘vintage black’ (basically dark gray) and dark olive - and a 3XL size, check out the new lineup.

https://bill-crandall.squarespace.com/store/dcaf-unisex-t-shirt-new-colors

I picked up my sample shirt at the post office, did a quick change in a cafe restroom, and stepped out like Superman from a phone booth. In the first few minutes I got ‘hey, I like the shirt!’ a couple times.

I can vouch for the quality. It’s comfortable material, a nice slim/tailored fit. I’m six-two with my shoes on, 190 lbs, and a large fits but with not much extra room.

Got my first review!

“It looks really good. We were really happy with the color choices. Given the somber times, neutral and muted seems appropriate.

My hubby is the god of T-shirts, wears nothing but, he was super psyched to get this T-shirt as was I.

I like your logo in the shirt collar, nice touch.”

Via Signal, how apropos.

Free DC

August 24, 2025

I was at an expat lunch at someone’s house the other day here in Nairobi. As it turned out, several people there had various ties to the Washington DC area. I was saying that when I was back last time in April-May, I was expecting a dystopia but had actually enjoyed it despite everything.

“Well, you might get your dystopia now,” one woman said. Indeed.

I won’t do a deep dive into what’s going on. You know what’s going on. How I feel about it won’t shock anyone, nor vary much from how you feel. No need for me to go on and on.

Instead I decided to make my response in the form of a photo post. Fairy Tales from the Fault Lines is my long-term project from the 2010’s. It started as sort of naive photos taken with my first iPhones (4/5) when I was out and about in DC with my young daughter, mostly within walking distance of home or work. No story, purely random, driven only by instinct. Over time it became more of a personal documentary series on changing DC neighborhoods. The real city where people live. I wasn’t sure where those changes would eventually land, and how I felt about them, but I’ve always thought places are most interesting in times of transition. In DC’s case, especially in what I called the city’s ‘fault line’ neighborhoods like Petworth (where we lived for many years), Columbia Heights, U Street, and Shaw - where the different sides of a long-segregated city intersected and mixed in new ways.

DC is where I was born and where I grew up. Over what feels like many lives there I’ve fallen in and out of love with the city plenty of times. Most recently *out*, if I’m being honest. The city has certainly gotten more slick and expensive - I used to say many areas where you used to be afraid to walk you can’t afford to live in now. It’s gotten ‘better’ in some ways compared to the sleepy dereliction of my youth, but lately I’ve had a harder time finding my place in it. Maybe that’s just the way it goes.

When I took these pictures, however, it felt great and I was in full enchantment mode as a new father. I remember a dream I had at the time, finding myself walking around the DC of maybe the 1940s or 50s - my parents’ DC - and a feeling of deeply loving it all washing over me. The buildings, the alleys, the people, even as I tried to avoid detection as a time-traveler. While I never got my Fairy Tales book off the ground, I did get a lot of mileage out of it through various exhibitions and artist talks. Some of the work was published in the Washington Post Magazine in 2015 along with my short first-person text (check it out here, and a different version on the Nat Geo photo blog here).

I remember writing that mainly I was trying to find out if I could love the city as I had loved other cities. The Post editor actually pressured me a bit to end on an affirmative note in that regard. The best I could do was a kind of “we’ll see”.

That was ten years ago, hard to believe how things have in fact ‘landed’ after all. Of course where we’re still heading is unwritten, talk about uncharted territory. This is just a short selection I pulled together with current events in mind. It’s a sizable body of work overall, I might post a second round later. Interesting that while I used to see the images as bottling a particular time period, now they also represent the ‘before times’. And of course a layer of nostalgia for that phase of my own life.

(I also added them to my prints gallery for anyone interested. Since some of them were relatively small files from the phone camera, I’m only offering modest print sizes.)

The project is an homage to the city I’ve loved and will always defend, but which may never be the same after the current occupation. I’m working on a new song about it too. Stay strong my DC peeps, this is becoming quite a dark fairy tale, more Grimm by the day. Somehow we’ll get through it together. I was glad to see the impromptu go-go show at the corner of 14th and U the other day. More like that please.

I just added my DC resistance t-shirt, modeled after ACDC’s logo, to my store. Available in a few different colors, mainly kind of earth tones for now, I might add other colors in the future. I tried to make them something a grownup would want to wear. Notice it’s branded with the logo I use, which is a graphic symbol for a resistor (with an ‘o’, the electrical component). See what I did there. There’s a another little backstory on it but I’ll spare you for now.

The Tumblr Edition

August 10, 2025

Greetings from Nairobi.

If asked, I don’t really know how to describe what I generally post about. Sometimes it’s personal musings or updates, sometimes on photography in various ways, sometimes my music endeavors and various resistance-tech fixations. All are me trying to process life and ideas and share it out in ways that are hopefully interesting, relevant, and that respect your intelligence. To me, all have an undertow of mindful, art-based resistance, even if it’s not explicit.

Who knows if I’m doing it ‘right’? Maybe I should stay more focused. Or, maybe I need to mix it up more.

How would it look if I collected a couple weeks worth of stuff I’d normally post on social media and put it here? (That’s sort of what I was doing with my former Viaduct Arts newsletter, for those that subscribed to that. Viaduct was usually a compilation/digest of recent FB posts with a note from me at the top.)

What if you didn’t have to doomscroll on whatever platform to come across each individual post randomly, instead it all plopped as a bundle into your email on a Sunday morning?

It’s not a perfect experiment. Images seem to work best. I’m already discovering what wouldn’t work well in this space, like links, reels, anything not ‘evergreen’ enough to last more than a day. And of course it means you can’t comment or like the individual items.

There’s not as much to choose from since I like many others don’t post that much anymore, though FB is one of the few places I do. I barely look at Instagram, though it’s the only way to keep up with my Kenyan photographer friends. I dipped back into Threads the other day and it’s still way livelier discourse than Bluesky, which to my chagrin I’m beginning to give up on but I’ll leave that for another post.

In general I think the model of sharing broadly with strangers may be nearing a close. If there was a better way to share with friends and family that didn’t require wading through FB’s dreary AI slop or IG’s reels I’d sign up in a second. Otherwise I’m feeling a bit done. Anyone feel the same?

I’m more interested these days in what I’ve heard called the ‘cozy web’ - newsletters, groups, blogs. I’m liking good ol’ email, highly recommend Proton for the encryption. I’ve tried leaning into corresponding more substantively with a few friends via Signal, it’s been good. We’re so used to messaging being for quick hits, why not think of it like writing a more thoughtful letter or postcard?

Of course, I think many people are starting to remember that nothing beats in-person, real life interaction. And that might just be what saves us.

While on the subject of platforms, this is required reading about Substack. While it’s a place for valuable and interesting independent voices, it’s also a Nazi bar of sorts, comfortable enabling various creepy-crawlies:

Substack’s extremist ecosystem is flourishing

How about more Tumblr-style? Just throw things out there. I know times are dire but maybe we are feeding the beast by focusing on it to the exclusion of all else. There has to be more to life than Wordle results and end-times fascism (aka ‘political’) news. Which I guess eliminates much of what I (and probably you) post on FB. Let me see what else I got.

A better idea than the real thing, though there are certain people I wouldn’t mind being flung into actual space.

Remember magazines? The late Stockholm New was an amazing once-yearly (!) culture/art/fashion mag that I used to collect in the before-times. Didn’t know there was a ‘best of’ book. (Though I’ll admit that cover image sure lands more toxically these days…)

It had beautiful minimalist design that I used in my Publication Design class. I sent it recently as inspo to a Kenyan friend who I’m helping develop a Nairobi art magazine.

I think mags like Kinfolk and Cereal were pretty heavily influenced by Stockholm New.

“I’m onboard with ‘clanker’ as a slur for robots and AI.”

Cool micro art shop in Haworth, England. All work by the artist-owner (no I didn’t take this pic, just came across it).

Samples from my World Landscapes print gallery.

“Wet Leg. Hell of a band (and band name). New album Moisturizer is the finest rock record I’ve heard in a while.”

“I had been reading good things about Superman. Ok, I saw it in French, which didn’t help. A lot I didn’t like but mainly methinks the director took the ‘let’s up the stakes by making him vulnerable’ thing too far. He spends the whole movie getting his ass kicked or crawling out from under the big thing that landed on him.”

"Personally I am very pessimistic. But when, for instance, one of my staff has a baby you can't help but bless them for a good future. Because I can't tell that child, 'Oh, you shouldn't have come into this life.' And yet I know the world is heading in a bad direction. So with those conflicting thoughts in mind, I think about what kind of films I should be making." - Hayao Miyazaki

This just in before I hit publish today, I’ll leave you with Robert Reich’s thoughts on Vaclav Havel and not letting the times suffocate us:

Havel had become politically active as poet, playwright, and dissident after the Warsaw Pact invasion of Czechoslovakia in 1968 — which put him under the surveillance of the secret police. He was repeatedly jailed, the longest from 1979 to 1983. (In 1989, his Civic Forum party played a major part in the Velvet Revolution that ended Soviet dominance, and he was elected president shortly thereafter.)

While in jail, Havel wrote something that seems particularly relevant for us in these very dark times:

“The kind of hope I often think about (especially in situations that are particularly hopeless, such as prison) I understand above all as a state of mind, not a state of the world. Either we have hope within us or we don’t; it is a dimension of the soul; it’s not essentially dependent on some particular observation of the world or estimate of the situation.

Hope is a not prognostication. It is an orientation of the spirit, an orientation of the heart; it transcends the world that is immediately experienced, and is anchored somewhere beyond its horizons. Hope, in this deep and powerful sense, is not the same as joy that things are going well, or willingness to invest in enterprises that are obviously headed for early success, but, rather, an ability to work for something because it is good, not just because it stands a chance to succeed.”

*Paris Songwriters Club, photo by Jean-François Bellier*

On the Move Again

August 2, 2025

Sorry no newsletter the last two weeks. I found myself with nothing in particular to say and my bandwidth in Paris was taken up by a swirl of pending changes.

Time to go, for now, visa deadlines loom. By the time you’re reading this, I’ll be back in Nairobi for a bit. If you can believe it, VOA’s final fate is still not resolved but nonetheless we expect to be home in the US soon enough, and we’re happy about that.

There are many things that I liked about Paris, maybe more than I used to.

The city seems to be doing great, pulsing with life and variety. There’s a better mood than I’ve sometimes found in the past. I even noticed the French people are a bit friendlier than I remember. Amazing how it’s become a biking city.

Believe it or not I didn’t come across much anti-American sentiment, or outrage about what’s going on in the US. They do ask about Trvmp, and occasionally Mvsk, but they are not nearly as obsessed as Americans are.

The French people I’ve interacted with seemed pretty chill, open, and interested in talking to an American (granted I do try to be a good brand-ambassador). I still sensed a respect for American culture, and maybe a desire for the US brand to not collapse entirely.

The young guy working at a cafe in our suburb came over and chatted me up in earnest for a good while and was profusely shaking my hand by the end.
The immigrant running the local pizza place said he once studied in DC and was quick to tell me he prefers life in the US.
On my way home after playing an open mic in Belleville, a young French-Arab-African (his description) guy across from me on the Metro started asking about my guitar and where I was from, we had a great three-station chat about music and life.
Waiting around before playing at the Paris Songwriters Club in Montmartre (see top photo), I overheard a French singer-songwriter say (non-sarcastically, I think) ‘oh shit, there are Americans here, I hope my songs are good enough’.
At our local cineplex, Superman was packed but I also went to well-attended one-off screenings of the original Blade Runner and Jaws.

At least some of the US soft power legacy seems to be holding for the moment.

No, in the end I didn’t take many photos. Never found my hook, and our daily life was much more in the burbs, not central Paris. For me personally the gift of time was a chance to work on music, almost like a self-residency. I think I got somewhere new, especially with my live performance fitness and confidence. I’m grateful for the chance to grow and for a lot of positive response. People seemed to care, many told me what I was doing resonated with them. Can’t ask for much more. The open mics - often several a week - were also a way of discovering cool parts of the city I didn’t really know before.

Just the other day I came across some great new pics of the one I played on a canal barge in Stalingrad in early July. Here are a few by their own photographer (as marked) plus a couple of mine to set the scene. Just a wonderful space and vibe.

It’s remarkable how art and culture are woven into the fabric of Paris life. A bit scary to think France is one of the only countries with global influence and power - even nukes - that still sees itself as a bastion of culture, design, ideas, and human values. There are dark rumblings and thugs on the march across Europe too, and the world’s biggest countries are all sort of a lost cause at the moment. It has occurred to me we may need France to carry the torch of idealism if the US falls further under the boot.

At my performances in Paris, I often started off by introducing myself as being from the US, along with some variation of:

“Rough times in America.” Then only half-jokingly, “We’re counting on you, France!”

Paris Open Mic Report

July 13, 2025

As I wrote in my newsletter two Sundays ago, I’ve been playing outdoors here in France. I omitted one purely practical reason for doing so: we’re living in a suburban town out at the end of a RER train line (not Metro) and the last train from central Paris is around 9:30pm. So much for going out at night, including all the great open mic nights I had searched up around the city. If I wanted to play anywhere other than our apartment, outdoors it was, and during the day.

When we were first here there was RER maintenance going on for a couple weeks, so sometimes there wouldn’t be *any* train service on weekends and evenings, or there would be bus service adding at least an extra hour on the way home. Pretty brutal.

When you add the fact that the door-to-door journey itself is already an hour and a half each way, frankly we weren’t even going into Paris too often.

Then just over a week ago, everything changed.

On the way home from Paris one night I was pretty late for the last train and had already resigned myself to a pricey Uber. I decided to check the trains just in case and…

BOOM - late trains running! I’m still confused. New schedule since the repairs? Were they always there and I had it wrong?

In any case, since then I’ve been hitting the Paris open mic scene with a vengeance. This past week I did three nights in a row and might try for four next week.

You could play a different one every night and most nights there are multiple options. The level of musicians can be pretty high, but you get the whole gamut like open mics anywhere. Although I’ve seen a few people who clearly didn’t even know their songs, that was sort of strange. Maybe they were imploding with nerves, I saw that a couple times. One girl kept getting flustered, stopping, and fussing, ‘YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND, I’M TRYING REALLY HARD!’. A young guy completely botched his cover of Blackbird but came back super strong for his second song, he had good chops.

He told me after, “I don’t know why I do that… I need to learn to get comfortable right away”. Right there with ya.

For starters, I had an offer to play an open mic on a canal barge in the Stalingrad area, at an occasional series called Sawmill Sessions at Peniche Anako. Great space, great sound, great audience, just quality all around. The limited open mic roster meant business, really top-notch (followed by a group jam, which is a common thing here). The featured performer who invited me was Cory Seznec - who is not only an incredible musician, singer, and performer with a strong following here, but by chance is moving to Takoma Park with his family shortly, so keep your eyes peeled for any shows.

Cory’s set was jam-packed (granted it was his sendoff show for his peeps). It got even more crowded after I took the shot below on the right, standing room only in the back. Amazingly it didn’t thin out too much for the open mic segment afterward.

I was up last (I think it was 8th). For the gearheads out there, I really enjoyed the Ear Trumpet stage mic, one of those you stand a bit back from, old-timey style. It was startling in its warmth and clarity. Cory got my second of two songs, a soft, restrained version of Love Again from my Mars album (the intro got clipped).

You know I hate these videos, I find them diminishing, but I’m trying to get over it.

Next up was the Paris Songwriters Club, hosted by an Irish expat downstairs at the Cave Cafe in Montmartre. I didn’t get any photos, sorry, but again it was a packed lineup and a full and diverse room. I’m hard on myself but I was happy to play pretty well, solid energy, and get a good response to the songs. I’ll be going back.

I talked my daughter into coming with me the next night to the Highlander, a Scottish (duh) pub right off Pont Neuf. Another medieval basement space.

As I mentioned recently, I’ve been practicing an alternative set, reviving long-dormant originals by me and my mod-entourage from the old DC scene and reworking the songs for solo acoustic. The Highlander open mic would be the first time I would roll out a couple of them in front of people.

While they’re from such a different era and we were practically kids when we wrote them on our Rickenbacker guitars, I can’t help but think their blend of youthful hope and a certain grandiosity might make them the right kind of anthems for our current moment. What’s the expression, if something is out of fashion long enough it comes back?

My Own Interests (by The Generation)

In a distant land,

Where the borders reach into the sky,

I can take a stand,

With no fear, no need to question why.

I can make a plan,

A new design that needs no reason.

You can understand

Why the harvest comes in every season.

My own interests lie

In a place where no one bothers me

My own interests lie

In a place that only I can see

No light ahead

Just empty space where birds are riding

Full speed ahead

Only I can tell where the truth is hiding

Don't take my hand

If you know what's good

From what someone told you

No one understands

That a paradise is waiting for you

I got my daughter to record video and she did a great job. I flubbed a few lyrics, like swapping ‘stand’ and ‘plan’ in the intro verse. Yeah, still learning them, and the stage sound was pretty challenging so tbh this time I was in survival mode. But that’s part of why I do these, learning to survive anything.

Afterward I was down about it at first, it had sounded so terrible to me and felt like such a struggle. How it sounds out in the room is often very different though, so the video was actually reassuring. Part of the deal is how you cover any problems, so in that sense it was a win.

I usually make little notes for myself. “Overall not bad. Next time looser, more energy.”

Lastly, Thursday night was Tennessee Jazz, not far from Highlander. I was 12th on the list, out of around 20.

I don’t have pics or video of myself but here’s the scene:

When you talk about culture in Paris, this is one of the lesser-appreciated manifestations. People turn out for even the humblest - but surprisingly rewarding - of music events: the open mic.

Nairobi E-Photobook

July 6, 2025

I’ve been exploring how to use the photos I make in new ways. I really have no interest in spending weeks or months on a project only to post on social media for likes. Unfortunately that’s where a lot of photographers’ work goes to die these days. In the future I could try to do a Nairobi book or exhibit but that’s down the road.

One thing I came up with for my Nairobi series is an e-book, to put the pictures in immediate, direct service of the young photographers and students I was helping in the Kibera slum (the largest not just in Nairobi but in all of Africa). I worked with a great weekly photo class for teens, Kibra Film and Creative Hub, run by a dedicated guy named Hassan Ahmed.

As you may have seen me post about before, I brought Hassan photo books from home as the start of a modest photo library, so students would have at least some reference resources for inspiration and ideas.

Yet while showing the students images of Chicago or Paris or Istanbul is exotic and instructive, for these young people it’s perhaps not as useful as images closer to home. What I knew from giving a couple of presentations to the class is that they really responded to seeing what they can do with the visual and storytelling possibilities in their everyday landscape. Like most of us, they are fairly numb visually to that landscape, but to me Kibera and Nairobi - while quite challenging - are among the most visually rich communities I’ve ever encountered. I could see they were most electrified to realize the potential that surrounds them.

As a resource, I decided to make them an e-book using a selection of my Kibera/Nairobi images and a kind of general summary/outline of my guidance. It’s both about and formatted for the phone, which is what most of them are using to shoot for the class. In fact some of them have to share phones, there are often not enough to go around (there are a few DSLR cameras too).

This way the file is endlessly shareable and each can have their own copy that they can access anytime.

I think this ebook is helpful for anyone looking to improve their creative expression using their phone camera, and includes thoughts on things like composition, editing, and many of my general principles and quick strategies from fifteen years of teaching.

Here are a few screenshots:

I’m making this resource, born in Kenya, free for my subscribers.

Here’s the Dropbox link, I invite you to download it to your phone and/or computer.

Alternately, here it is on Proton Drive.

If you like, you can donate to the Kibera photo program through me. Anything you can afford will go a long way to help Hassan buy more cameras and subsidize the fees (about 15 bucks) for those who are interested but can’t afford it. Intake for the next session is going on now! Send me a message and we’ll coordinate, I still have the Kenyan mobile payment app so I can forward money to the right account directly.

If you want to support my efforts, buy a print, make a donation on my site anytime, and/or please consider giving me a shout-out to anyone you know who might want to subscribe to my newsletter.

In Music News

June 29, 2025

If you see me on FB, you might wonder why I’ve been posting about playing outdoors in random places here in France. There are some practical reasons and more spiritual ones.

No I’m not busking. For one thing, I simply need to practice to keep and build my musical fitness. It goes away, fam, especially as you get older. I know that’s stating the obvious but I’ve never been a diligent practicer. Yes, I’ve played music for literally decades. But that was for bands, where you can hide, and I had lost my chops entirely for several years at one point when I basically gave up music. Solo is a totally different beast, it’s like I started over about nine years ago now.

Playing outside is daunting but I like it. Since for a while now I haven’t been in one place long enough to line up actual gigs, it’s sort of like the open mics I was doing around DC recently to stay in shape. It’s a big step up from practicing in your bedroom, because with any eyes and ears on you it adds that little bit of pressure that is helpful. You’ve got to bear down more. It’s like practice for your nerves as well, which I still have a slight problem with. I’m a growth-mindset type, it’s an ongoing process to get to where I want to be.

There’s something profound about placing your music out in the world, instead of in a closed-off venue. And doing it in a place like Paris becomes part of my explorations, sort of like with photography. I’m sniffing around for the right spot, the right time of day, the right situation, where I feel a certain comfort and connection with the surroundings. It’s a vibe thing, for me the camera is like a divining rod and so is this. Sometimes I pick for acoustics, underpasses are always good.

It’s led to memorable moments in the last couple days.

On Friday I played in a little park right behind Sacre-Coeur. People nearby here and there, of all ages, reading books (yep, there’s hope for the world) or quietly sitting around. Very peaceful on a perfect day weather-wise. I played for maybe an hour on one of the covered concrete benches, trying to add to rather than detract from the mood.

At least no one fled. One young guy was sitting on a bench across from me with his eyes closed for a good while, almost like he was meditating. He came up to me after, I said I hoped I wasn’t disturbing him.

“No, just the opposite” he said. “Are those your songs??”

Turns out he was a musician and had been digging it. He had kind, thoughtful, and insightful things to say about the melodies, chords, passion, etc but also just about creativity and life. Just an awesome guy, we talked for a good half hour. Made the whole day of lugging my guitar up and down the hills of Montmartre in the heat worth it. Classic case of ‘if you reach even one person’.

Then it happened again the next day.

Not at first. I went back to Montmartre but this time that same park didn’t work at all. It was just too hectic, even annoying.

When it started getting late I settled on a shaded little pocket park down the street. Kind of noisy, near a main road. It was partly a playground on one end, there were little kids charging around. I got sprayed by a water gun and one kid in diapers kept trying to smack my guitar.

Not ideal but I hung in there, shifting to my new alter-ego set - a revived compilation of originals written by me and/or certain friends spanning various bands we were in back in the long-ago DC scene (a slice of which I wrote about here). Plus a couple of covers. That material worked better - louder and more upbeat than my usual solo stuff which is fairly mellow.

Toward the end a couple of young French rock-and-roll types had stopped to watch as I bashed out a version of Smithers-Jones, a song my old band Modest Proposal used to cover. They seemed to like it.

“Super cool. Pink Floyd?” one asked.

“The Jam,” I answered. Blank stares. Oh well.

I had noticed a young art-nerdy girl sitting on the other side of the park was sketching me for a while. I went over to see if she would show me. She was super nice, she actually gave it to me, said “you play really well!”, and vanished.

Oh man, I’ll cherish this. All my tiredness and doubts fell away for the second straight day, once again all it took was that one person, one sweet interaction, to make it feel special. And this time suddenly the roles were flipped, I was the part of the visual landscape someone else chose to focus on. Pretty cool.

While I’m not taking photos much at the moment, this process and the little rewards that come from it feel similar.

[By now you might be thinking: um, video please? Maybe I will eventually in some form, but frankly I hate crappy little phone videos - of myself and others - and I don’t really have any gear whatsoever here to make it sound decent. Then the whole enterprise becomes something else, that will never do justice to the experience and the moment.]

Speaking of taking music out into the world, this is super cool, take a look. No, he’s not my beard-game inspo but I do love Loney Dear’s work. He’s like Sweden’s modern-day Brian Wilson.

When 1000 Words Beats a Photograph

June 21, 2025

Re-publishing this after last week’s post on Kosovo and Serbia. This story was from one of my followup visits to Serbia. Yes I’ve posted it before, when I first got on Substack, but almost no one saw it. And it’s one of my most memorable experiences, a better story than the photograph that caused it.

Word to the wise: old women spinning wool in random fields are no basis for stopping the car for photos! They could be sirens luring you to peril!

It’s not even a very good photo, in the end maybe not worth what it cost me.

As our five-day Serbia photo road trip neared its end, my Serb friends and I decided to pull over one more time when we saw her. This was one of my last frames before we noticed a small group of soldiers approaching us from the line of trees.

“What are you photographing?”

“What does it look like we’re photographing?”, my friend replied.

“There’s an army base over there.”

“What army base, I just see trees.”

“It’s beyond the trees.”

“Well, I don’t see it.”

“You’ll have to explain that to our commander, come with us.”

A couple hours later the interrogation wasn’t going anywhere. The officers had a light-bulb moment that all of my answers were being translated by my friend, who could be telling them anything. So we waited about an hour in silence, another guy showed up, pretty beefy, and they started over with the same questions. Soon he couldn’t help showing off a little.

(Caricature of a deep Slavic accent) “Mr. Crandall, I want you to know I speak English very well, and I am listening very carefully to what you say.”

“Ok.”

Things still didn’t really go anywhere. I was a freelancer for the Washington Post, NY Times, etc at the time, was in the Balkans for my job as Photo Director of the Balkan Times news site, but was shooting for myself. They didn’t know what to make of any of that. But you could tell none of them really had the authority to call the whole thing off.

“(Sigh) Show us where you were photographing.” So we went back out to the field and recreated our angles.

“Are you sure you couldn’t see any barracks?”

Playing it safe, I hedged. “I don’t think so, how can I be sure?” I said. My friend was livid, hissing under his breath “damn it, say YES I’M SURE!”.

My slight waffling was costly. “Ok, we will take you to the police station in the nearest town, where we have a photo lab. We will develop your film and we will see what you were photographing.” So we followed them to Uzice in our car, already exhausted. My friend’s girlfriend, who they separated from us, said later she overheard they wanted to take us to military court if they could see '“one window of the barracks” on our film.

The police chief came out to meet us. We sat in the car as he spoke to the military guys for a couple minutes max, and made a few gestures that I interpreted as “are you guys total idiots, wasting my time with this?”. I guess he had the authority to call it off.

That was that, we thought.

But the translator guy, who we called Bruno because he looked like a Bruno, perked up. “Great news! Now I can show you my town!” and set off across the street still holding both of our confiscated cameras in one giant hand. What he really meant was now we could sit for another two hours with him in an empty 80s-decor cafe while he practiced his English with a literally captive audience.

He seemed particularly determined to zing me, his American ‘guest’.

“Americans know little about history. Mr. Crandall, you say you are interested in Eastern Europe, the fall of the Berlin Wall… Tell me, what was the REAL beginning of the end of communism in Eastern Europe?” My friends peered at me expectantly.

“Um, I’d say the 1980 Solidarity movement in Poland, Gdansk shipyards, Lech Walesa…” They burst out cheering and high-fiving like I had scored a goal. Bruno was not amused.

A bit later he tried again.

“Americans know nothing about geography. For example, can you tell me what is the capital of Latvia?” Where I’d been a few years earlier, so that didn’t work either.

My head was splitting, we hadn’t eaten since morning. I excused myself to the bathroom just to get away. He came along and peed next to me and kept talking, something about Bosnian Muslims not washing their hands.

When we finally somehow made it back to our car it was dark with a five-hour drive back to Belgrade. The next day we were on the TV news by name, photographers detained on suspicion of spying. The embassy called me. My older Serb colleague said everyone was asking him about me - “You know Crandall? What’s he really doing here??”- apparently there had just been an actual recent spy scandal in Belgrade involving an American passing sensitive documents.

Bruno later called my Serb photographer friend, saying that he was glad to meet us, that he lived unhappily with his mother, and he hoped we’d visit him again sometime.

New in the Prints section this week - In 2005 I was on a magazine assignment to photograph the Czech band Plastic People of the Universe at the Black Cat club in DC. They were well-known dissidents in the 1970s, and their old dissident buddy Vaclav Havel, who happened to be in town, showed up to see them backstage with Madeleine Albright.

*Dumpster fire with competing graffiti, postwar Kosovo, 1999*

On Kosovo and Serbia

June 13, 2025

A note about the lead photo. It was one of the first photos I took after arriving in Pristina, the capital of Kosovo, when I went there on my own to photograph the postwar situation. I still had my backpack on from the flight, and was killing time while hoping my sole contact there would pick me up later as promised. (This was 1999, no smartphones. I had a cheap basic phone but no local SIM card yet.)

I didn’t think much of it at the time but a local friend told me what was interesting to him was the competing graffiti. The faded one in the background says ‘Nikola Mostar’ in Cyrillic. Meaning some Serb guy named Nikola is bragging he helped destroy Mostar, Bosnia, during that conflict a few years earlier.

The more recent one is the rebuttal, presumably by an ethnic Albanian, though interestingly in English. Over a smoldering literal dumpster fire. Sort of the Balkans in a nutshell.

My contact - Rod, an Australian I met on the UN aid flight from Rome - did pick me up btw, right on time in front of the Grand Hotel (locals joked it wasn’t grand and barely a hotel) in the cold rain as evening fell. By then I had discovered that who I thought was my only contact, an NPR reporter, wasn’t even listed at the hotel. So my new Aussie friend was all I had.

Turned out Rod was the local head of World Vision’s media relations. Meaning part of his job was to help visiting journalists. He put me up in a guest house for the week I was there, drove me around to sites outside the city, and let me use their office.

When the UN aid plane we had shared crashed in foggy mountains a few days later, killing everyone aboard, there was no way to leave. It was literally the only plane going in and out of Kosovo at the time. So Rod told one of his staff to drive to Thessaloniki, Greece for some World Vision business. And, oh, on the way drop off Bill in Skopje, Macedonia for his new flight.

I couldn’t have done much without him. I always seem to find a guardian angel.

As I go through my archive, the question that often looms is not just what is good but what still endures. Which is tricky when you have something that was once timely and topical like Kosovo. Why should anyone be expected to care after so many years? We have enough on our plate.

When I say tricky, first off even referring to Kosovo and Serbia as separate places would be offensive to Serbs (pre-war Kosovo was a province of Serbia, with a majority ethnic Albanian population). Kosovo finally declared independence in 2008, which Serbia still does not recognize. Even the spelling of the capital - Serbs use ‘Pristina’, Albanians ‘Prishtina’ - is loaded.

A Serb photographer friend, no right-winger himself, anguished to me back then “I still can’t believe we lost Kosovo.”

The reality of course is that the specifics of that conflict have long faded. It doesn’t take twenty-odd years for that to happen. Who is still talking about the Sudan conflict of the last couple years, which isn’t even over?

Of course for those in Kosovo, life has moved on but considering it’s the Balkans, grievances can still be ‘fresh’ after centuries,

But we can’t even keep up with our current grievances, threats, and conflicts. How can you ask someone to care about photos of what is now not just old but ancient news?

I think you do it by taking a step back and trying to universalize it. Revisit the work not for the ‘best’ photos but for what can still pull us into the story.

I’m no war photographer, Kosovo is the closest I’ve come. If you put me in an active war zone I would be useless. I’d run away from the bullets, I’m funny that way.

At the time I was more interested in the humanistic side: How would the Kosovar Albanians - just back en masse from muddy refugee camps over the border in Macedonia - try to reclaim their lives with winter coming on?

Those I met were often astonished to be alive. School started, markets reopened, but cold was the new threat with many homes without doors or windows. In the heavy, rainy gray of Kosovo in the November I was there, they tried to pick up the pieces.

But I also came to be very interested in ordinary Serbs, who were just coming out from under Milosevic. Internationally demonized for ethnic cleansing of a province Serbia claims as their religious cradle, Serbs argue they were simply defeating a separatist push until NATO got involved against them.

I saw the Serbs as victims as well as perpetrators. Victims both of the war itself and of Milosevic’s ultra-nationalist reign. Around 250,000 ethnic Serbs in Kosovo were displaced, forced from their homes in fear of revenge attacks after the war. Many would never return, though they were unwanted in Serbia proper either. Those who tried to go back at the time often ended up in tent camps under constant armed guard by KFOR troops, sometimes within view of their houses.

I wanted to understand them too. Looking back now, hardcore Milosevic supporters remind me exactly of MAGA. The same faces. And the violence and divisions of that period in the Balkans offer plenty of echoes of where we’re headed today. So many stories of friends and neighbors who got along fine, until they didn’t.

Until they started killing each other.

I normally try to be very careful about pairing photos, the contrasts can make statements that you may or may not intend. In much of the former Yugoslavia, it’s easy to get it wrong, at least depending on who you’re talking to. So, yeah, tricky stuff, but I thought I’d try anyway to juxtapose pics of Kosovo’s ethnic Albanians and Serbs. Maybe it’s actually strange I’ve never tried this before.

I’m looking for certain visual and thematic combos. I want to see if it can make some elements of the situation understandable and maybe even still relevant after all this time, even without a lot of explanation. But open-ended enough to ‘read’ them and form your own ideas. I considered not even telling you which side was which, that might have been interesting but maybe not as illuminating.

Let me know what you think of these examples. This is a valuable exercise for me, especially for a project that never quite achieved final form. I have no illusion of offering answers but hope it at least provides intriguing questions or insights.

Destroyed Albanian home near Pristina | Camp for returned Kosovo Serbs, northern Kosovo

British KFOR soldier with ethnic Albanian kids, Pristina | Milosevic supporters, Belgrade, Serbia

Serbs, Mitrovica, Kosovo | Albanians, Pristina

Albanian kids in apartment lobby, Pristina | Serb nationalist, somewhere in Serbia

Pristina, Kosovo | Camp for returned Kosovo Serbs, northern Kosovo

Camp for returned Serbs, northern Kosovo | Pristina

Vandalized Albanian mailboxes, Pristina | Camp for displaced Kosovo Serbs, Belgrade

Camp for displaced Kosovo Serbs, Belgrade | Pristina

Camp for displaced Kosovo Serbs, Belgrade | Market, Pristina

Theater festival, Belgrade | Minefield, Klina region, Kosovo

Looking Back, Looking Forward

June 8, 2025

Apologies for no Sunday newsletter last week, I was traveling for a few days.

First off, I know in the last several months I was spreading across various platforms but I’ve also been working hard on my website. Lately I’ve been aggressively consolidating under that one roof and trying to keep it dynamic: frequent updates, the blog/newsletter, RSS feed, print sales, and a dedicated Workspace page for interacting virtually with students and collaborators. At the same time I’ve pulled back from doing some of those things on places like Substack and Ko-Fi. To me it just feels so much better - and avoids both algorithmic and oligarchic ick-factors (how’s that for alliteration?) - to build on your own real estate.

Notice I’ve more clearly made my homepage at billcrandall.com a place to see anything new at a glance. Why not bookmark it? Besides the blog (where this newsletter comes from), there are additions every week, like a feed. New projects, new additions to projects, new print offerings, etc. My goal is to update as often as social media.

Today you’ll find a new batch of international landscapes from my archive, which were just added to the World section of the Prints gallery. Well, as much as I love nature, I almost never do straight-up landscapes. Usually they are what I think of as human landscapes:

The Blue Lagoon in Iceland. From our first visit there many years ago, before they jacked up the prices and you didn’t have to book in advance like now.
Kiev’s Independence Square (aka Maidan) during the Orange Revolution, remember that? Felt like such a hopeful turning point at the time. Little did anyone know what was still to come.
A orphanage for baby elephants we visited in Nairobi several months ago.
Boats launching from Soumbédioune fishing village in Dakar.
A hopeful moment in postwar Kosovo.
An Arabber’s horse-drawn produce cart in West Baltimore.
A cityscape of Tallinn, from a brief visit after my 2013 residency across the water in Finland.
A farmer and his wife doing their morning chores in Poland (can’t recall the village name).
A overexcited guard dog greeting me and a friend in southern Serbia on a long-ago road trip (that ended in our detention by the ex-Yugoslav military, but that’s another story, maybe I’ll repost it soon).

Again, check them out on the homepage or the Prints gallery page.

As step back and look at them together, I have the distinct feeling like maybe I want to say ‘see, the world is pretty cool and interesting - and worth fighting for’.

Lots more to come, hope you’ll consider becoming a collector. From a friend and recent satisfied customer:

“I’ve been meaning to write and say two beautiful photographs arrived last week. They were perfectly packaged and printed on serious, heavy paper. We can’t wait to frame and hang them!”

I made my first images in Paris one day last week, sharing a few little impressions below. Besides the fact that I’m living out in the ‘burbs and don’t get into the city much, as I mentioned last time I haven’t been sure what to shoot here. I know that sounds crazy, I mean it’s Paris, right? But the last thing I want to do is what other people do, or feed everyone’s preconceived notions of this city. Tbh I admit I came here not sure that Paris is for me, but also not sure that Paris is even the Paris of our collective imagination.

But I also don’t want to do a critique of the city. That would just be sort of a bummer, and we don’t need that.

Instead of rejecting the idea of old romantic Paris, I decided to see if I could find if it actually exists and what that means to me. I know, sounds super easy to fall into cheesy clichés, that would be a huge challenge.

My first instinct was to see if I could find a particular old atmosphere. I was thinking of how Haussman’s early 20th century renewal bulldozed most of what was left of medieval Paris. I’ve had the nagging feeling Paris is again on the cusp of another new phase, or is already there. Like most cities, partly becoming a commercialized Potemkin version of itself. So if musty remnants do in fact exist I’d better hurry.

I searched up some of the old Left Bank literary/artist cafes to see if there were any ghosts there. Les Deux Magots, Cafe de Flore, and Le Procope are all pretty close together. Most looked nice enough and had lines of tourists waiting for lunch, not surprising. The last one, La Palette, formerly known as an artists’ cafe, spoke to me a bit more over my croque monsieur.

On the way there I stopped in a used book store. The woman working there saw my camera and started rummaging for photo books to show me. One of the first ones she produced was by Josef Koudelka, my favorite photographer, and it was the exact small edition I carried as a photo student until it literally fell apart.

Ok, karma was starting to speak and I tried to listen.

She couldn’t get her card reader to work, so I couldn’t buy it, so I set it down and took a photo of it, catching the light on a little pedestal of books. Like the holy grail.

At a vintage store later, an oddly random piece of ductwork somehow struck me in a similar spirit. I don’t know why. The owner got mad at me for not asking first, oh well. I usually prefer forgiveness over permission.

At least I was starting to get a feel for what I wanted. I think. As I used to tell my students, it’s hard to find what you’re looking for if you don’t know what you’re looking for.

Postcards from America

May 26, 2025

Ramble On

May 25, 2025

Ok, yeah, Led Zep reference. On a side note I’ve been revisiting them recently, what a weird and interesting band beyond their hard-rock debauchery. Robert Plant is such an unusual singer. A precarious relationship with pitch and his voice goes rough in odd places, but there really is no singer quite like him. Jimmy Page and John Bonham are so heralded (rightly so) but John Paul Jones might be the real glue. They have a reputation as gods of thunder, but so many songs are acoustic and even on bangers like Immigrant Song the guitar is actually barely distorted. For a band whose better-known songs like Kashmir and Stairway to Heaven are over eight minutes long, Immigrant Song is surprisingly short, clocking in at a mere 2:26. Their dabblings in Druid and Norse mythology should be ridiculous but somehow manage to be evocative.

For such a famous band they are sturdy but pretty unpolished and off-grid by today’s standards. Pretty damn refreshing if you ask me.

*Syrian refugee from car window, Paris, 2016*

Anyway, this was supposed to be about rambling. It’s been a strange ride lately. In March I was still ensconced in Nairobi in our house with two doggos. In April I was back solo briefly in the Republic of Takoma Park, seeing my mom, reconnecting with friends and fam, moving soil in the garden, and trying to help save the US republic-if-you-can-keep-it.

Today was my first morning waking up in my in-laws’ apartment in a suburb of Paris, where circumstances have brought me for an undetermined period of time. Not complaining (or bragging), it has been that old dilemma of stability/security vs freedom/change. Certainly lacking the former at the moment but I feel privileged to be gaining plenty of the latter, especially as a man of a certain age.

Not sure how much I’ll photograph here, we’ll see. Paris is a challenge since it’s one of the most photographed cities in the world. If I do find a theme, I hope it will at least surprise. As I often say, I don’t try to make places look good or bad, I’m looking for something truthful. So many people, photographers included, fall into the trap of idealizing and romanticizing Paris, as if it was still the 1950s Paris of their mind’s-eye. Not me. While I do like it, I find the reality of the City of Light a somewhat grittier and complex everyday experience.

With that said, for now first things first. I set out in the cool rain early this morning, jet-lagged but determined to get my fix of proper croissants and baguettes. That’s something I do cherish here. On the ten-minute walk there, I reminded myself (as I would remind my former students) to at least look around, to open my bleary eyes to new surroundings.

It’s a bit like in 2013 when I had two days (really only one full day) to photograph in Tallinn, Estonia. I needed a hook, so I decided to not even shoot the famous Old Town at all, I only worked in the surrounding Soviet-era areas - with a bike and one small camera - to see what ordinary life was really like. My idea was when can a post-Soviet country move on, start being post-post-Soviet? The set actually won an award and were part of an exhibit at Nat Geo, here’s a different edit including a few I haven’t shown before: